loving yourself

loving yourself is so important because when you are there in your bed at 3am, when the world is silent, when the only sound you can hear is your breathing, and the only thing you can feel are the wet tears on your face, the only person who is going to be there for you is yourself.
-sid

staying strong

Do you ever hear the saying that "when a girl cries it's usually feelings that have been bottled up for so long"? That is true. For me, I overthink a lot. When something happens that makes me extremely upset, I would isolate myself and think of all the things that I have ever done wrong. I think to myself "what if?" "what if I did this differently, would my life be better? would it be worse?". Right now, at this very moment, I am content with my life. I have friends who support me in everything I do and they are like a family to me. Sometimes, because I am very short, I always tell myself that I am not capable of certain things but I am. You shouldn't downgrade yourself and neither should I. There was a time when I hated myself so much that I got to the point where I would start hurting myself. Now., I am almost 3 years clean. I am honestly so proud of myself.

I am a muslim and we believe that there is a god who has set out a plan for all of us. He has set obstacles in our way on purpose to show how strong we are. If you are not a muslim, just believe that there IS a plan set out for you and you WILL find someone who will make your day that much brighter. Just forget those friends who left you, or that someone betrayed you in your family, you shouldn't worry about that. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. I seriously want to shout it out to the world so that there are no more suicides. YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE.  I am here for you, even though I don't know you.

STAY STRONG!

sid